Thursday, July 31, 2008 10:18 AM
Silly ziber FINALLY spilled all her heart-felt words. SILLY. though i only read it from her blog, i felt a little lump in my throat. it must have been really hard, but she chose to kept to herself. Qi and i were just talking abt it that day at work. Anyway, dear ziber, we're ZIBERS for as long as u think we would be! Haha. Anyway, felt a little something when i read abt the opportunities proposed to her at work. I have no idea what emotions am i feeling: 可惜? Jealous? Or what. Of course I'm glad she's given that. And I could only tell myself that, it wasn't the right time for me then. I guess I didn't push myself that hard, I didn't cherish what I had back then, I didn't try as hard to work with Ray and Jen too. Maybe if I held on, the chance could be mine. Seriously I think I regretted my decision.
Stuck at this point now; helpless ):
Ok, I don't need anybody to tell me, "Aiyar, too bad lor, don't think abt it lar." It's not going to make me feel better. *Sigh. Shh.Money No Enough 2 made me cried. Esp the scenes in hospital; the familiar scene in the ward and the sickening beeping machine reminded me of ah ma. It's been 4 months. (: Pray that ah ma is feeling good and had settled down wherever she is now.Felt so like a little girl in baby's arms; with his smile, sayang-ing me, and saying these at my ear, "哭什么.." and wiping my tears. (: What a sweet ass. ANTM tonight! (:
Tuesday, July 29, 2008 10:21 PM
Oh silly me..
I reached the swimming pool at 8.45pm. Happily thinking that it closes at 9.15pm. Haha. I had no idea how '9.15pm' came abt, but thinking of it now, it is indeed a bit weird for any operating hrs to end at 9.15pm. Anyway, I went in for an approximately 12mins of swim. I haven't feel such determination and discipline in myself for a very long time. Go ahead, laugh at me.
When i really feel like doing something, I do it. When I don't, I probably won't do it, no matter what (:
Haha random.
Today, I'm constantly and repeatedly being reminded about what we discussed last night. Not very pleasant. Neither was it a quarrel. I KNEW WHAT YOU MEANT, EVERY SINGLE WORD YOU SAID, ok. Felt a bit hurt by some words of yours, but very touched by the rest of your words.
(: 爱你很多很多..
Monday, July 28, 2008 3:05 PM
After talking to Mich, i was thinking if i should take a part-time degree course? $$$ - Will bf and i be financially strained if i take up a course? *Our car plan will be postponed to an even LATER date. hmm.. Haha then again, i'm only ASSUMING he's willing to share the fees with me. Boo.. Going to work everyday is a tiny torture. From the journey, to be the first stepping into the office, to checking email, to doing invoice, to listening to endless nonsense from them, the torture grows gradually throughout the day. It only lessen a little during lunch either with the girls or bf. Joy only comes when the clock strikes 6. Simply means, i won't stay long. *sigh.. Yesterday, Bf and i had dinner with my sis at Sakae. She's been pestering cause i promised her i'll treat her when i get my FIRST PAY. LOL. Find it a bit weird. My sis is growing up, to a teenager, to an adult, unknowingly. Haha time flies. She's a bit geeky yet smart. Yet irritating. Our love-hate relationship. Haha. I'd hated her alot when i was in my sec sch days. She used to be a 'sabotaging' sis, untidy and messy! Haha. I scream and yell at her A LOT! really. thinking back, i think she must have hated me as much as i hate her too. Haha.. Oh so random.. OH! 1st Aug, this coming Fri, is 七月初一already! ARGH... Honestly, i've always been paranoid abt Ghost Festival. Paranoid on normal days, then SUPER PARANOID during this particular month. Haha. I duno why, I'm a scaredy cat. May Guan Yin Ma 保佑我.
Wednesday, July 23, 2008 1:57 PM
BRACES? NO BRACES?
I went for a dental checkup few days back. Did 4 fillings and cost a freaking $120. Yar i didn't spend on clothes, i splurge on my teeth instead.
Anyway, here's e stats:
$4000 (NOT including extractions and x-ray)
Min. 2 and half yrs (read: MINIMUM. I'm going to be super ugly-looking for 2 and half yrs):
Extraction of 4 tooth (Oh i hate extractions! Who likes needles poking into your gums, esp. when they poke a certain point of your gum, practically can faint)
But still, i want to have a pretty set of teeth. At least, straighter teeth.
I've lived with these ugly-yet-some-ppl-still-say-cute vampire tooth for 21yrs. Ever since primary sch, dentists had been telling me to do braces, but $$ was an issue. And do u know how long is the waiting list? U need to wait donkey yrs b4 it's your turn.
Anyway, back to now. I have to decide.
MONEY isn't really a major problem, as long as i have a steady income, which means i cannot be out of job during this period of time at all.
PAIN is a big issue. I'm a scaredy meow meow. I hate dentists all my life, since primary school. Seriously. Maybe it's a phobia. I duno.
Hmm, the whole braces thing will strain my relationship with BF. Really, I can already start imagining all the scenarios of us quarrelling. Ha! Cause, maybe u know, maybe u don't, I'm super easily pek chek. And BF gets pek chek easily when I'm pek chek. Confused? Nvm. Anyway, I'm not sure if he has THAT MUCH patience to deal with me. Hmm..
What if I complain of discomfort and pain due to my braces and he replies, "aiyar, bear with it lar. who ask u want to do. bo bian lor." I WILL BURST OK! ha! Oh! And what if it affects our kissing? LOL. Not that I'm really bothered by this, but it came across my mind. Hmm.. then he'll get so pissed off by the metal thing in my mouth. But then again, maybe these negative thoughts won't take place. Maybe he'll be a really sweet BF. Everything's MAYBE.
*Sigh.. Give me some advice please, anybody who reads this. If anybody bothers to read.
Liting's 21st!
Haven seen some of these girls for a real loooong time. It was good updating each other and talking crap, cause there were a few rather awkward situations.
Ying is good, can multi-task. See how she's paying attention to whoever is talking to her and posing without looking at the camera at the same. Haha!
I think none of us really change alot (:
Thursday, July 10, 2008 9:11 PM
dbl o - Part I
long time since i partied and stepped into a club. since qi's bday at zouk. so count for yourself. haha! permission granted to dbl o cause baby said he give Lin face. haha. baby rushed down to join us at dbl o after his ops dinner that night. i don't really know what's his real motive there cause he DISLIKE clubbing. yup, to give Lin face and also, maybe a large part was being worried about me. hee.. but i'm good, i know my limits baby.
i totally appreciated your gestures: paid for the entrance yet stood alone, drinking beer.
I LUB LUB U LOTS ARH! :)
Monday, July 7, 2008 10:51 PM
Bangkok
Day 1 - 27June08
Checking in
he never fail to show THAT face to the camera. haha.
while waiting for the plane.
i think i must have heard something hilarious. lol.
our first dinner in bkk. tom yam wasn't impressive. we weren't satisfied.
grocery shopping at 7-11
our GUESS and DKNY watches! ha!
the rich counting their assets
Day 2
this boy really never fails to create amusement. look at my silly baby! LOL..
Baiyoke Suite's breakfast.
Five in a tuk-tuk! say SQUEEEEEZE...
SNTMs doing their high fashion photo shoots. lol. self-entertaining.
the Lim's
they're sold in dozens.
"wholesale price! wholesale price!"
finally some Chinese food..
Day 3
the giant specs are cute, but i know we look very silly. haha!
shopping kaki. at chatuchap.
"i enjoy seeing u spend money."
"never mind, i pay first. i like u to owe me money."
make a guess, who would say these. haha. kns.
Day 4 - 30June08
ah girl's sweet 20th :)
our hilarious snake and ladder. i shall not post photos of yuling in her drunk mode. haha.
cheap mani and pedi. tai tai hor.
at Bangkok airport, waiting for our flight back.
see for yourself. my LOOT from BKK! but believe me, half ain't mine. so i really feel i didn't buy alot. OK, i promise I'll concentrate more on my own shopping than other people's! lol.
I TOTALLY ENJOYED THIS TRIP! CRAZY TRAVEL MATES. SATISFYING BARGAINS. CHEAP BUYS. BARGAIN-ABLE TAXI RIDES. SONG SONG BODY and FOOT MASSAGES. haha i love Thailand! :D
Thursday, July 3, 2008 1:56 PM
we lived those 4 days in total luxury.shopping sprees, massages, manicures...hungry; eat. tired; rest. no limits, no constraints, almost no restrictions.all the laughters, stupid lame jokes, funny things we do. ha!i secretly hope we dont have to come back here, to face all the harsh reality.but, cannot be done.work is shit. pure shit. 100% pure, with pulps. haha. argh, fuck it. *love u, baby. all the shopping u allow me at bkk. i know u want me to enjoy myself to the fullest, which also mean lots of shopping:) and i did! enjoyed myself to the max with all the silly pals together. *MUACKS! love you, sticky bro and yuling. ha!love you MORE, emo chanel LIN.. :)still waiting for the pics! haha..
