Tuesday, August 5, 2008 8:11 PM
Baby..
This is probably the millionth time you'd heard this from me. I just wanna let my thoughts be known to you.
I hate your working hours, totally. Yes, I'd been through it, I know your job, I know THIS job. But as a GF, I hate it. Then again, I know you have no choice, you enjoy what you do and you're really happy here. I know, I know, I know...
I hate that I can foresee the whole week ahead; which are the days you'll be too busy for me or best, whole week is packed. Wtf. Esp. on days when you give me, ' Sorry no choice. Bo bian. Can't help it.' (-___-)" When I understand your position, who understands mine? And when I show my 'signature' black face, I'm labelled as a selfish, unreasonable or unsupportive gf. *sigh. But I do not want to put unnecessary pressure on you either. Maybe the best thing I can do is to leave office quietly everyday. I do not want to disturb you, neither do I want to harbour thoughts of meeting you after work. I fear disappointments. I'm not trying to act strong or tough or indifferent or whatever. Whenever I leave office unhappily, I tell myself to get used to it.
Baby, I'm sorry. I don't know when I will be able to give you my fullest support. But I know you will still do well without it. I will try and try and try to be a supportive gf as much as I can, and I will try not to put any stupid pressure on you.
Actually, I'm very proud of you. Really. That's why you are given the chance to perform this role you're handling now. I know you will excel. You're my SUPER BABY (: